the elevator

every junior worker will be an elevator boy slash girl.

that is the fact. fact that is funny, cute but scary.
this is what happen when you being junior and you do look like one.

those who are working must know that being in the elevator can be pretty awkward especially when you know one of the people is a boss. the only thing you can do is look at your leg, elevator’s walls or maybe just stare at those tiny buttons.

it will be worse if your destination is the highest floor which you will not have your “elevator-freedom” thingy. oh, yes i do have my own “elevator-freedom” thingy. lots actually. i am just bored. and don’t ask me what i did. more awkward when out of those people, you are the only lady and not that pretty for them to smile. they all being macho and all. duhhh

as a junior worker (okay, intern), i always thought (in the elevator), ‘if i see this pakcik makcik (uncle aunty) at night market, i probably treat them as elder people with equal status as others’. here, i have to respect them upon their statuses in organization. so basically, at night market, their statuses are not referred even if we may have seen them in an elevator at the shopping mall, we won’t be affected by their existance.

this awkwardness can lead to nervous breakdown, rapid heart beating, sweat on your upper lip, under your arm and suddenly you need to go to the toilet. here are the things i do to fight this awkwardness.

1. bring your phone and pretend you are writing a very important notes. so that you won’t look like a junior.
2. if you have files with you. READ IT. so people may think that you are actually on your way to a meeting.
3. i don’t have number 3 or 4 or more.

so let us fight this awkwardness and enjoy your elevator ride.


the eyes

eye consists of pupil, nerve and bla bla bla. want to know more, ask medical student or Google. I know, I sound ignorant yada yada, okay i’ll google after this.

you can see things. duhhh, everyone knows that. you can make assumption through what you see. sounds genius, right? yet, first assumption does not allow you to make a conclusion. i sound amazingly genius, huh? through eyes, you can see much better picture than the highest megapixel phone can ever have. islamic notion here, of course our eyes is created by our mighty God, Allah. Alhamdulillah, i am able to use my eyes,  and those who are unfortunate, you are wrong, you are not unfortunate, actually, you know more than those who can see. you have your heart.

yet, that is not the reason of my post here. talking about how it is beneficial to us, so on and so forth. i want to talk about my failure managing my own eyes. scary? sound a bit psycho?

have you ever been so sleepy that even your hands, fingers are still writing or typing on a keyboard, your eyes just shut? seriously. have you? i do and i did. this is one of the most terrible things that can happen to me especially at office. it happen this morning.

i was in the middle of typing and suddenly my eyes just shut, but somehow, i feel my fingers are dancing on the keyboard. but i just let it be, cause i was so sleepy back then. unfortunately, a mister who is sitting in front of me came and i was then moved my hands faster and made a very serious face with big eyes and sit properly and ignore what just happen.

very very very terrible things to happen.

by the way, do you know how i cure my sleepy eyes? and yes after i istighfar, i opened Bones Episode 3 Season 7 on my phone and started to continue my task. it works. i didn’t watch it, i just listen. songs does not really been helpful lately. sad.

the chair


i prefer to do my assignments on a table with a chair. by the way, not the kind of chair above. nooo, that one just look pretty,vintage something like that.

i found myself more focus and suprisingly quite when i do my work. i also have this serious face when i am too focus in my work. my friends, who know me, say that i look mad when i am serious, in my work.

i just started my internship and this too-focus-too-serious face makes me worry. i am worry that my colleagues would think that i am in a bad mood or mad at work or any other misconception that they might think.

being an intern, you can not be 100% about yourself or you will not be able to get an offer, people will dislike you, so on and so forth. i just got my real task, so i have been busy because i have to submit it on Tuesday next week.

i thought sitting on the chair would be fine because i have done that before during my study but nope, it is not fine at all. my back, oh my God, it pains my back, my shoulders, my join, everything. i feel old already. my shoulder, i can’t even set it straight while in the bus.

working is not fun. if you are currently in university, studying, keep on study. study until you are old. the stress of working is on the new level. you are afraid all the time. study is fun. keep on.